I think I can

 I think I can.  I think I can.  I think I can...

Maybe if I keep repeating it will be true.  I am beyond nervous about the first day of school for Hudson tomorrow morning.  A new school.  A new teacher.  A new structure.  And for me, a big step.  

Last night we went to the school to meet his teacher and see his class room.  He was so excited and wanted to examine everything!  He happily greeted his teacher and the para and talked to the other kids. 

Tonight, after getting Charli to bed we snuggled in his bed, FaceTimed with daddy, Nana and Granddad and MomMom and Papa.  We read "Many Colored Days" and talked about what color tomorrow would be.  Then we said our prayer and he hugged me tight.  He looked up at me. 

"I don't think I want to go to school tomorrow.  I'm too little." 

Heart. Broken.  It was all I could do not to say. "OK!  Never ever leave me!"  

I'm not tough enough for this.  

More to come.